Still Posting Through It

I’m in much better health now, but still recovering from having a cold or whatever.  Sadly I got some unpleasant mail that brings me anxiety and the exact court date for something that has loomed in my mind for many years. It’s only been a few hours but I’m already skipping meals and suffering intrusive thoughts of self harm. Sorry if I was supposed to post a trigger warning but that’s what’s going on with my mental health! I took some CBD and messaged my dear daughter for comfort and support. I have prescription anxiety medications but they cause such tiredness, I try and delay taking them until evening. Until a few days ago I had a phone therapist and she was very helpful to talk to, but she’s moving on to some other job and transferred me to someone else! But it’s a few weeks from now and who even knows if it’s a good and helpful fit. So I am in for a rough time it seems.  November was pretty harrowing too (the bulletholes in my apartment situation, ya know). The bullet hole was finally repaired after 2 weeks, but it was a very stressful series of phone calls every day involving a social worker with HUD who is helping me. The social worker claims to still have no response from the landlord’s office,  even since the work was done! In the back of my mind I’m worried what will happen in the next few months when my lease renewal comes up. The social worker assured me we’ll stay in touch. Hopefully she can help protect my housing, and hopefully things will go well for me in other areas of life I’ll discuss another time here and with the correct assorted professionals as well (lol). Sorry if it’s TMI and cringe to post my every L but I have behaved this way online for decades at this point, across so many forums and sites, and cheers to my new blog too