The Full Beaver Moon is a funny named lunar phase and last night it was impressive to behold for this vaguely witchy millenial mom. I didn’t go outside nor take any pics, it was a cloudy night with our first serious New York snowfall. But I sat in my dark kitchen drinking herbal tea and watched her (the moon is a girl I guess) sparkle orange for a moment here and there between the black cloud cover. It was only 5pm but it really seemed like night.
My daughter and I went to see the new Hunger Games movie last week (The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes). We had both read the book when it came out (I listened to the audiobook twice) and had went to see the previous ones in the theater during my dear child’s tween and high school years. It was a long movie, more than 2 and a half hours, but we did enjoy it! The main character is not the most sympathetic character (the movie is a prequel telling the origin of a Hunger Games villain) but the actor who played him was great at taking us along that complicated journey of uderstanding the selfish motivations of a dedicated hater, and even empathising (is this exercise worthwhile though- I’m not sure). The music was great, the special effects were hundo-million dollars type of impressive, there were truly emotional moments and the costumes were really interesting (did Lucy inspire the Capitol citizens to start dressing in a more wack fashion?!).
My only complaint is not with the film but a disappointment in my aging body. After almost 3 hours in the mall’s movie theater chair, I think I was injured from sitting.
I didn’t notice anything feel weird during the movie, though I shifted around positions a few times. I felt ok when we left the mall and through the rest of my day, but by the next morning a pain was unmistakable! Something hurt inside my leg. Between the hip and knee, along the side- I was somehow mysteriously injured. I have to assume it was the theater seating because nothing else unusual or strenuous happened in my life. I’m over 40 so maybe that’s just how it is now.
Over the summer after having sat criss-cross applesauce on the floor, my knee hurt for a few days, but I recovered quickly. Hopefully this is the case again! It’s been a few days now and does seem to be improving. I actually have an upcoming doctor appointment for the first time in three years (a phsycial I was forced to schedule or lose my patient status) so if my current leg problems persist I’ll bring it up then.
Youtube wasn’t really helpful towards diagnosing whatever is going on. Maybe it’s sciatica, or something called piriformis syndrome. The muscles or whatever affected to seem to be connected to “turnout muscles” not that I’m dancing ballet but I did in my childhood and it seems to be that outward rotation is the main motion that’s making my body say OUCH! It’s easy enough to avoid. I’ve been sitting and laying on a heating pad, taking advil, massaging my leg, wrapping an ice brace and elevating my foot, and some other methods of care I discovered from social media.
Bad news came in the mail! I don’t even want to get into it right now, but neoliberal Democrat type of policies are working hard to ruin my life (and everyone else who is disabled, but I’m sure many of you already know!). I’m really worried about losing my housing to be quite honest.
More bad news came from a text message! It seems like the dental industry is a complete scam and the work I’ve needed since FEBRUARY 2023 is yet again delayed. When I responded to the text (that they want to reschedule) the receptionist said that my referral from the emergency dentist had “expired” (nevermind they were the ones that set the far away date for my procedure?!). They really want me to, within 3 days, go to the emergency dentist again and get a new referral.
I was thinking this whole time I was scheduled for a dental extraction but apparently this was just a “consultation” not even the thing I was expecting them to do. My tooth has been broken since February and I’ve heard that can be quite dangerous not to treat! I have been trying to get it treated and thwarted by insurance sadly. So my life is kinda falling apart and everything seems bad and painful lately.
I wish I could end my journal entry on a positive note, but there is just too much stress to find much to be thankful for.. well the moon looked really cool, as I mentioned before. My sweet kiddo has been very reassuring and supportive! Even though I’m aging, I have no doubt I’m still very hot, sexy and beautiful and, at least for the time being, I have an apartment to live in. I mustered a bit of gratitude there, and take it as a victory. I hope my readers are well, and will heal fast if you’re not.
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