Facing Unpleasant Consequences

My ID has been expired for five years, most people are chill and just let it slide, if they even notice when I rarely have to show it. It’s not expensive to get (non driver ID) but it isn’t an important priority to me for some reason. I’ve still used the expired ID for medical treatment and getting Covid vaccinations, bought various age restricted purchases over the years and proved my identity in county court and federal buildings. I am over 40 years old (lol) and it’s visibly obvious in person, I think. Yes I carry an out of date document but the information is still accurate and it’s very annoying to me, considering getting another one. 

Recently I was put on the spot, called out and denied buying something due to my ID. So that is an upcoming project for me to face now. I looked at the ugly government website to learn what documents I’ll need and gathered my old papers into a folder. Hopefully it goes smoothly in the next week or so and then I can ignore the Department of Motor Vehicles for another decade again! “Motor vehicles” those things are a scourge on the Earth and it really sucks they’re issuing ID cards, in my opinion

Trigger warning for the next part it’s about a past eating disorder and the ongoing bad dental situation I caused myself-

A tooth of mine that was broken for years actually fell out on it’s own. It’s always scary when that happens, but it was a relief this time too. It was the wiggling shard of my upper incisor. I had been lately envisioning tying the tooth with a string to pluck out with violence but I would remind myself I have a dental appointment coming up in November, and with great inner strength resist the urge. I’m really glad that it fell out though! There was no blood, and it doesn’t hurt, so I am happy to feel my unfortunate gums with my tongue now. My teeth are going to be a nightmare for the rest of my life even though I’ve really recovered from bulimia. My tooth enamel is gone and my teeth will continue to crumble away, or so I’ve been told. I can’t be too upset about it, though, that was a big part of my life and I’m doing much better now. 

Being confronted with reality is not very chill but I will be ok. I’ve been through worse and have a lot of support and help to figure out what to do. I have both a reservation at the DMV and a dental appointment coming up so I will take care of these problems even though they’ve been delayed.