Doomsday

Things seem to be getting worse. My mood is kinda suffering. For some reason the methane gas bubbles trapped in permafrost are on my mind. I heard that’s very dangerous to be released into Earth’s air, and the ice is melting more each day. If you are experiencing higher than usual levels of anxiety, well  so am I,  and the increased methane levels might contribute. According to scientific research it’s bad to blast the Calthrate gun, bad for human life anyway

I had to talk to a social worker,  a lawyer and therapist today,  it really sucked. They are trying to help me, it’s very nice,  but also humiliating and pathetic. Its their jobs, each one! They literally signed up for the schooling and get paid, but I still think it’s sweet they are doing this.  I shouldn’t say too much about what is going on but thankfully was assured it’s unlikely I end up in jail/prison. I’ve been through a lot in my life including several forms of what I call “locked up” so I can’t take it too seriously this time (it’s still definitely got me on edge though).  I’m trying to keep my mind off this and avoid all thoughts, there’s a court date and that’s the soonest anything moves along

All day I keep my Switch at hand and play ACNH at every possible opportunity. One day I played almost 6 hours, but I do still eat and keep up with work and chores in the spare moments when I take a break.  My gaming hobby only started over summer 2022 and isn’t usually so excessive, but I’m going through a difficult time and my cute digital doll house island helps me feel a bit better.

I heard the price of food keeps increasing, eggs are becoming more expensive and butter is inflated by 30% but I have truly lost my appetite lately and barely notice it.  I bought a box of protein bars and bag of sweet potatoes, which I can live on for a few weeks, drinking tea! It’s not totally healthy but a better attempt than ramen noodle subsistence imo. Weight loss is the silver lining on my ceaseless anxiety 😇